I guess new beginnings start somewhere in any aspect in life.

With that said, I'm gonna start deleting people altogether on here.

Leave a message if you still wanna stay on the list.

Well, its almost been 3 years since I had this thing, and it has been through some interesting times.

I honestly don't know if I have the motivation to keep updating this thing. A lot of things have happened to me this past year, and this journal is just another hassel to deal with.

I'm contemplating deleting this altogether.

Barely a day after wallowing in my deep sadness, I get a call back from one of the jobs I applied to.

Wednesday morning is my damn interview. Wish me luck here because I REALLY NEED IT.

Moving on...

I just realized I'll be in San Francisco for 3 days next week. Monday-Tuesday for FastTrack Orientation with Courtney Arrieta(Another transfer and CB Alumni), and for the Warped Tour on Saturday. Good thing the weather isn't gonna be TRIPLE DIGITS.

er...I think thats it for now.

Now if you excuse me I need to go back to being frustrated at the fact that I can't draw ANYTHING and waste more than half my sketchpad and fill up the wastebasket and cursing at myself at the same time and I just realized that this is a REALLY REALLY long run-on sentence so I'm going to STOP.

I feel sorry for all the trees that sacrificed themselves at the expense of my passion. *sigh...*

June's here and I can finally relax(almost).

My dad got a new 80 GB Hard Drive for the laptop, and everything is back to normal-minus all the music I lost :'(.

I just realized how much crap I have in my room ranging from old textbooks from Loretto(which I couldn't sell anymore) to a lot of clothes that either are too big and have never seen the light of day. I think a trip to Goodwill is in order.

Well, back to endless errands....

Thanks for the love from the last entry. It's nice to know that people still care and remind you that youre still loved.

Went to USF on Saturday for open house, and the whole trip only made me even more anxious to move there. In other words, I fucking love it. I'll talk about the whole thing nexttime.

For now, I thought I'd post this cuz sadly for me, most of these are TRUE. Hehe...BROWN POWER!!

You Know You're Filipino When....

Your middle name is your mother's maiden name. Your parents call each other "Mommy" and "Daddy." You have uncles and aunts named "Boy," "Girlie," or "Baby." You have relatives whose nicknames consist of repeated syllables like "Jun-Jun," "Ling-Ling," and "Mon-Mon." Mine by the way was "Che-Che." You call the parents of your friends and your own parents' friends "Tito" and "Tita." You have four or five names. You greet your elders by touching their hands to your forehead. You always kiss your relatives on the cheek whenever you enter or leave the room. You follow your parents' house rules even if you are over 18. You live with your parents until and at times even after you're married. You decorate your dining room wall with a picture of the "Last Supper." You keep your furniture wrapped in plastic or covered with blankets. You have a Sto. Nino shrine in your living room. You have a piano that no one plays. You keep a tabo in your bathroom. You use Vicks Vapor rub as an insect repellant. You eat with your hands. You eat more than three times a day. You think a meal is not a meal without rice. You think sandwiches are snacks, not meals. Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy Susan) in the middle. You bring baon to work everyday. Your pantry is never without Spam, Vienna sausage, corned beef, and sardines. You love to eat daing or tuyo. You prop up one knee while eating. ou eat your meal with patis, toyo, suka, banana catsup, or bagoong. Your tablecloths are stained with toyo circles. You love sticky desserts and salty snacks. You eat fried Spam and hot dogs with rice. You eat mangoes with rice--with great GUSTO! You love "dirty" ice cream. You love to eat, yet often manage to stay slim. You put hot dogs in your spaghetti. Everything you eat is sauted in garlic, onion, and tomatoes. You order a "soft drink" instead of soda. You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror. You get together with family at a cemetery on All Saint's Day to eat, drink, and tell stories by your loved ones' graves. You play cards or mahjong and drink beer at funeral wakes. You think Christmas season begins in October and ends in January. Your second piece of luggage is a balikbayan box. You've mastered the art of packing a suitcase to double capacity. You collect items from airlines, hotels, and restaurants as "souvenirs." You feel obligated to give pasalubong to all your friends and relatives each time you return from a trip. You use paper foot outlines when buying shoes for friends and relatives. You're a fashion victim. You can convey 30 messages with your facial expression. You hold your palms together in front of you and say "excuse, excuse" when you pass in between people or in front of the TV. You ask for the bill at a restaurant by making a rectangle in the air. You cover your mouth when you laugh. You respond to a "Hoy!" or a "Pssst!" in a crowd. You'll answer "Malapit lang!"--no matter the distance--when asked how far away a place is located. Goldilocks is more than a fairy tale character to you. You refer to power interruptions as "brownouts." You love to use the following acronyms: CR for comfort room, DI for dance instructor, DOM for dirty old man, TNT for tago nang tago, KJ for kill joy, KSP for kulang sa pansin, OA for over-acting, TL for true love, BF for boyfriend and GF for girlfriend. You say "rubber shoes" instead of sneakers, "ball pen" instead of pen, "stockings" instead of pantyhose, "pampers" instead of diapers, "ref" or "prijider" instead of refrigerator, "Colgate" instead of toothpaste, "canteen" instead of cafeteria, and "open" or "close" instead of turn on or turn off (as in the lights). You use an umbrella for shade on hot summer days. You like everything imported or "state-side." You love ballroom dancing, bowling, pusoy, mah jong, billiards, and karaoke. You have a relative who is a nurse. When you're in a restaurant, you wipe your plate and utensils before using them. You can squeeze 15 passengers into your five seater car without a second thought. You wave a pom-pom on a stick around the food to keep the flies away. You always ring a doorbell twice, assuming that the first ring was not heard. You let the phone ring twice before answering, lest you appear overly eager. Your other piece of luggage is a balikbayan box. You use a rock to scrub yourself in the bath or shower. You're proud to be Filapino - and you pass these jokes on to all your Filipino friends!

speech tomorrow. good thing i dont have to memorize it, but it has to be between 8-10 minutes and i gotta read off from my outline. fucker. its weird giving presentations about...yourself. stupid self-analysis project to let the whole damn world know how good/bad you communicate with certain people.

on the bright side, i mailed in my confirmation form. now i gotta wait for the residence package, and soon ren is gonna be my roomate next semester. oh fun fun times that will be...XD.

in half an hour, hell week begins for me. its nice knowing you all...

I just realized that most of my posts from the last few months are anything but positive. anger, frustration, and stress, stress, STRESS. Oh, and the fact that my mom is borderlining to the point where she's wants to KILL ME. what else is new? We pretty much fight on any day that ends in "y". My dad is getting irritated with the both of us and shit, I dont blame him. I'm getting tired of my mom being pissed at me 24/7. She's not like me where I say whats bothering me. She's more passive aggressive-lets it all bottle up instead. I don't need this right now. I got enough to do this week. Until a fucking miracle happens, I dont see no sunshine peering through the storm.

wasting time and being unproductive like a good college student should be doing. go me.

Describe:
Your heritage: Filipino
The shoes you wore today: cotton mary janes
Your hair: dyed, tied back
Your weakness(es): too lazy to list them...
Your fears: heights, spiders, death
Your perfect pizza: the garlic chicken pizza from round table
One thing you'd like to achieve: get a successful career

What is:
Your most overused phrase on lol
Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it?
Your current worry: USF Admission
Your plans tomorrow: US History, Stats, Bio lecture, drive home, NAP, HW, then maybe go out for a while...
Your best physical feature: dunno really...eyes maybe
Your bedtime: around midnight
Your greatest accomplishment: surviving halfway through sac state

Do you:
Cuss: Fuck YEA
Do you think you've been in love: in the past? HA...no.
Want to get married: eventually...
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: most of the time. I do just fine thanks...

QUESTION.
Like to take baths: I do, I haven't in a long time.
Get motion sickness: Nope
Masturbate: NO
Like talking on the phone: Depends who it is
Like thunderstorms: Nope
Play an instrument: I used to.
Workout: yea-when i can
Like reading: put it this way-if a book can get my attention for more than 15 minutes, then im sold.
Favorite Body part: hair
Kind of fruit: Strawberries!!!
Music to fall asleep to: slow beat songs.
Time of the day: NIGHT
Feature in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, personality
Car: one
Number: 7
Thing to do right before bed: check laptop one last time
Thing to say when you're mad: "WTF???"
Era: hmm...70s-80s??
Foreign film: Amelie, Hero
Colors: BLUES
Fuck: lol what???

The future:
Age you hope to be married: after college and grad school-maybe 25 ish??
Numbers and Names of Children: No clue
Where do you want to go to college?: Tecnically i'm already in college, but not the one i want to be in.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Architechture-if not, then something visual arts related
What country would you most like to visit: Italy, Japan, France...

Finish:
I eat: food. duh.
I think: i better finish my fucking homework soon...
I am: sitting in my chair typing on my laptop
I loathe people: sometimes
I adore: erm...people who follow their own intuition
I am obsessed with: The OC!!!
I can't wait: (hopefully)to be at USF!!
I am annoyed with: stupid people
I miss: do i really need to answer that?? XP

k...homework time. bye...

Another dull evening at the Catli household once again. Here I am once again updating and talking to a few friends while I contemplate about the next two weeks. By then, school is back in session. I wish it would hurry the fuck up cuz I'm kinda goin crazy here!! Yea I do have a few friends here, but all of them have jobs while I don't.

I have no patience. A big part of me wishes that I was at USF already, but of course, I gotta wait awhile. Hopefully the saying "Good things happen to those who wait" will come true for me since I'm the kind of person that likes things to happen NOW NOW NOW. I remember a conversation that I had with my dad last night about how he was when he was 18. This isnt EXACTLY word for word, but it's close enough.

"When I was your age, I was in Canada for 2 years already. Your grandparents didn't want me to get drafted in the army, so they sent me to Canada where you Uncles were. I remember fighting against them and trying my best to get out of the situation, but in the end I left. It was difficult leaving everything you knew behind in another world and adjusting to a new one agaisnt your own will. It's funny how now that you reached that age and you're anxiously want to leave to another city. The difference is that you have a set goal in mind of what you want to do with your life, and I really admire that. I had no damn clue what the hell I wanted to do at that time because I was FORCED to be indepedent. I know you're the type that likes to be on her own, exploring new things, being free from restriction. I know you want to go, but your time will come, and by then you'll be glad that you did wait. You're going to do great there."

It's comforting to get support from loved ones. It just helps me feel even more reassured that everything is ok.

Everything is gonna be ok...

imissyoubb....

thanks everyone...

Just killing some time and studying before I head over to school for the IAD(Intermediate Algebra Diagnostic Exam) so I can take stats next semester. There's no fucking way I'm gonna take Calc again. SCREW THAT!!

First night back at Karate was so damn good. I've never recieved so many hugs in my life!! But its all good-they're family to me. And I like the new cycle we're startin-playin with the zai's!! If you don't know what I'm talking about, look at Raphael from TMNT.

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Hahaha...

As of today, no more classes until January 24. What the fuck am I supposed to do with all the extra time??

Whatever. Time to fuckin partay!!

Ok. I know there's finals coming up, but they're both just a waste of time. Maybe skim over math, but that's it.

ONE MORE FREAKIN SEMESTER OF THIS!!!

Yes I'm on coffee right now...

P.S. Forget myspace. Facebook is the shiz...

Registration time sucked. I missed my LC classes because of this damn thing.

Spring 2005 Schedule-Catli, Nicole J

Intro Science of Biology: MW 200-315
LAB: TR 130-245
Communication Experience: TR 1200-115
US History (1877-Present): MWF 1000-1050
Principles of Sociology: TR 900-1015
Intro to Statistics: MWF 1200-1250

16.00 Total Registered Hours, 16 units.

Someone give me a margarita.

...I'm gonna die.

Five days since I updated this thing. Thats an improvement.

Right now I'm taking a break from my studies. Its a miracle that I actually developed study skills too.

Classes are still easy, but the homework load has been increasing since finals are next month, especially art class with 3 projects assigned, one of which is due tomorrow. Plus I also have a rough draft for my english paper due the next day. I really shouldn't be complaining since next semester is gonna SUCK ASS for me with the classes I'm going to take(except Japanese-Its time to step out of the French cycle). Oh yea, and all the fun papers I'll be writing too. AHAHAHAHAHA!! *dies*

Life so far has been far from boring. I've been spending more time with people I went to high school since I really don't have a connection with the people at Sac State. Brandon has been coming over lately to spend some time together(plus raiding the fridge for Mocha Frappuchinos from Starbucks). I also saw a few movies within the last month which were all pretty good: The Grudge(scary-the jaw thing scared the shit out of me), The Incredibles(Pixar kicks ass once again), and Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason(Fucking hilarious). I'm also hoping to spend the weekend at SF with Ren since open house is on Saturday and both of us have been kicking around the idea for awhile(Ren, give me a call if you read this).

Three days to go until the Oath Ceremony. A few days close to dual citizenship...

Ok. Break over.

Miracle Max: Get back, witch.
Valerie: I'm not a witch, I'm your wife. And after what you just said, I'm not even sure I want to be that any more.

-Princess Bride

You know when a song is annoying when the beat is really catchy and the lyrics get really repetative to the point where it gets stuck to your head.

When the pimp's in the crib ma, drop it like its hot, drop it like its hot, drop it like its hot...

shit. im hooked. this is gonna take a while.

oh yea. almost forgot.

GO SEE THE INCREDIBLES!!!!

k. bye.

I got the rolly on my arm and I'm pouring Sean Don and I roll the best weed cause I got it going on!!

SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP....

damn...

+room looks like shit-CLEAN
+need to do rough draft
+study for upcoming math test
+do art project and waste more money
+clean the house
+do my brother's costume
+get my dad a birthday gift
+Go to next Samahang meeting
+get a costume
+do new art comission
+update USF application
+find a damn job
+go to the gym

...need more caffeine.

Dunno what I'm gonna be for Halloween. Any suggestions?

Fuck. Need to finish rough draft...

After all the times I missed going, I finally went to the Samahang Filipino meeting.

I'm hooked.

With all the hype and craziness that goes on, I'm really feelin it. And it's nice meetin other fellow flips too on campus. Oh yea, I won a Cat in the Hat watch for answerin some trivia question right.

I wanna go to the Friendship Games real bad...gotta influence the rents and I think I'll be golden and sheeeeeeeyyyyyiiiitttt....*crosses fingaaahs*

My layout got messed up so I gonna make a new one soon. Dunno yet, but probably one with Adam Brody. Yeah. Brody. Mmmmm.....

In honor of Filipino-American Heritage Month, here's some trivia:

TRIVIA: Who invented the fluorescent lightbulb? What decade?

Fuck it, I'm tired...can't think straight...

*passes out*

FIRST OFF before I begin, I need to get this off my chest:

If you have a problem with me, TELL ME in PRIVATE. The last thing I need is to get my head fucking chewed off in public at 8:30 A.M with 4 hours of sleep. Not too many people have gotten to my bad side and trust me, you DO NOT want me to go there.

I'm done.

So lets see how college life has been so far: No change. Some people look like theyre having the time of their lives, and I'm oblivious to it all. Or the fact that NO ONE tells me anything for that matter. BLAH...

But the Causeway Classic is this Saturday at Davis. The weird thing is that its in the afternoon. How freakin random is that? Football games are better at night time. But don't expect me to be on Sac State's side, most of the people I know are going to Davis's side. Haha, how sad is that? This whole thing better be worth it or someone is gonna get it. And theyre better be some mad parties after that too...

TO ANYONE WHOSE STILL IN SAC-TOWN:

Good Charlotte and Sum 41 WILL BE playing @ Memorial Auditorium on October 26 at 7:00 PM. I picked up a copy of SN&R on my way to math and there was a one page add for that.

And, YES I WANNA GO!! Gotta find some people to go with...Anyone interested??

Fuck it I'm hungry as hell. I think some Phish Food is in order...

Funny. I've been hanging out more with high school friends than Sac State People. Wait, I didn't really meet anyone that I can hang out with on a whim. Causeway Classic is this weekend, then Homecoming two weeks after that. At least those are two things to look foreward to. Other than that, Campus Life is dry.

Started to look at the transfer process for USF and the application isn't due until February 1st, giving me a shitload of time until then. Plus side? No recommendation letters. All I gotta do is keep up my grades in my classes, and keep myself busy with some school activities. Or something. I dunno. I got a looong way to go...

Damn I'm so tired...but can't. Gotta read something for english...ew.

Laters.

EDIT: This is funny...

If LJ Was a High School by Karen_Walker
Username
Principal	hermysteampile
Lunch Lady	wizard21
Head Cheerleader	leno_cinaedus
Quarterback	dirtyharry1097
Prom Queen	roquin
Gang Member	animeotaku51
Band Geek	dreamer_of_time
Theatre Geek	nsyncer1
Chess Club Captain	aww_mademeink
Loner Goth Kid	cye4mouri
Class Clown	rlesnar
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i.am.such.a.loser.

Looking at Sparknotes right now. Why? Cuz I have a quiz tomorrow. And I want an A.

WHATTHEHELLISWRONGWITHME?!?!?

Sometimes I wish I lived in the dorms. Or that I would be more outgoing or something. Life is too damn slow here...

I admit it. I'm jealous that my friends are having a ball in their dorms and embracing the independent life. And here I am commuting from home, wasting a full tank of gas every five days.

Sorry this is random but I HATE drawing eggs. I HAAATE it. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE it. The same goes for charcoal. And cross hatching.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK THIS CRAAAAAP!!

Sorry about all of this whiny bull. I'm kinda feeling out of it. Alright. REALLY out of it. For the last, well, two weeks??

I had enough. I'll be back online on Wednesday. God help me here please.......